Catch up: I took my last birth control pill at the end of April. We were going to try and have a baby! I mean, I was almost 30 and you know folks can't be having no babies this late in life. Plus, we had both been hippies back in the day, if you know what I mean, and that can cause sterilization. So, I had made up my mind that it would definitely take us forever to get pregnant. Surely.
Back to Wednesday. I tinkled on a stick and it said yes. Well, actually it said "pregnant." I was shocked. How could I be pregnant?? I've only been off the pill for a month! It was supposed to take 6 months for this to happen. Right? Wrong. Way wrong. So, here I am, pregnant.
Oh. My. God. I'm pregnant. What am I going to do? I don't even like kids.
Complete fear.
Oh. My. God. I'm pregnant. Ahhhh...I'm having a baby!
One thought later, complete happiness.
I've learned that hormones are in complete control of your mind, body and soul once you conceive. One year later ~ hormones are STILL in complete control.
Thank God James would be home for lunch in like 15 minutes. For 15 minutes I paced, cried, had a cheesy grin, paced some more, went back to look at the test, shook like a leaf and tried to think of a clever way to tell him. He walked through the door, I held up the test and blurted, "You know what this says?"
So special. So clever.
I finally convince him that I was for real and not playing a joke on him and we called our parents. Neither of them answered, so I took a picture of James poking his belly out like a pregnant woman & I held the test out in front of him and we sent them a picture. (Kicking myself that I didn't save this picture somewhere.)
They answered then.
I knew I wasn't very far along so I didn't want to tell a lot of people. I wanted to get out of the 'danger zone.' I had never been pregnant before and didn't know if I could even carry a baby. Plus, I had only taken one pregnancy test.
Remember what day it is? Wednesday. Know what event takes place on Wednesdays? Church.
Fast forward to 6 pm. Just getting ready to start church and our pastor walks up to me (in front of everyone) going on about me being pregnant. What the crap? I haven't even told my family. Here he is telling our church. I scan around looking for James and see him, phone in hand, showing people the picture. Dude, for real? Of course, I had a meltdown. We left church. I flipped out on him. (Hormones...)
So we had to make hurried phone calls to our family and tell them before the church grapevine took our precious news public.
This is pretty much how I remember this day.
I am completely in love with this little girl. I am completely in love with being her mommy. I can't imagine life before May 29, 2013. I can't imagine Irelyn not in our picture. She is the sweetest baby. I know I will fall more in love as she gets older. But today, one year later, I can't imagine being any happier.
My life isn't perfect but it's perfect for me.
Happy Throwback Thursday!!
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| I was 5 weeks when I found out. This ultrasound was at 7 weeks. |
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